Monday, 27 June 2016

A confession

I've been putting off writing this post for a while. I haven't been able to stitch on The Astronomer for ages now. Nearly 3 months. I cant bring myself to pick it up.

I have recently been diagnosed with OCD. I am trying different medications but will not be trying CBT therapy as it is not something that has worked well for me in the past.

Stitching became such a mammoth task due to rituals and compulsions i had to follow before i could even sit down to stitch. Constant checking of symbols and placement of stitches became overwhelming. The smallest mistake would end in tears. I started washing my hands till they bled in case dirt or oil got on to my work.

Im done for a while. I WILL stitch in the future but for now i need to get my meds mix right and concentrate on getting better. I want stitching to be relaxing again and fun. not how it has been for the last few months.

So for now have some pics!

Esmai recently broke her nose while riding her bike. She went straight into a lamppost. The very next day she was back on her bike. Shes fearless! The lamppost was replaced a week later as she had dented it. She will be 4 next month!

Connor is doing amazing! He can now ride his bike without stabilizers and is learning to ride one handed. He is still enjoying being Home Educated. He is doing very well at beavers and has earnt a lot of badges. He recently had his first sleep over with the beavers and enjoyed every second.  Connor has just turned 8!!

I have lost a tonne of weight- well not a tonne. 8 stone since last January. All thanks to a stomach ulcer. Im enjoying the slimmer version of me. I still Hate clothes shopping with a passion though! 


Bea said...

You need to look after you first - the stitching will be there when you're ready for it. Your kids are cute and well done with the weight loss no matter the reason.

Ruth said...

I'm with Bea-- the stitching will wait for you--most important is that you be gentle with yourself and look out for attacking lamp posts. :) Love Esmai's fearlessness -- good show, Esmai!!!

Preeti said...

Oh! I hope you feel better soon. I have some kind of OCD too but it has got nothing to do with my hobby. I could relate with the mania of washing hands which I do a lot while working in the kitchen for which I am told everyday by my family that it is just the skin left now, let it be there.
Your daughter is fearless and cute :)

Heather said...

Oh Hun definitely concentrate on getting better first! Your stitching will be there when you're ready :). Great pictures!